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May. 22nd, 2012

Something to think about...

The last thing he said to me before he went off to bed was "I'm done"
It was only a few weeks ago he would stay and make the effort to know what was bothering me. I guess it's true everyone has their limits. Apparently I've hit his. Isn't it funny how many stages there are in relationships? How many emotions, ideas, arguments...
Sit down and think. Really think about it. And then answer me, why do we do it? Why even bother?

Feb. 16th, 2012

rambling about relationships

Lingering in my mind are relationships ... broken relationships. Not necessarly a man and a woman in love, but overall. It's easy to befriend someone sometimes; to find something in common and build from there; share a laugh or sympathy but what happens next?

The clock is ticking and life doesn't wait for you to learn how to manage your time; juggle your responsibilities as a citizen, as a student, as a sibling, as a significant other, etc. Life happens way too fast. Time runs out quickly when you bombard yourself with responsibilities and guilty pleasures. Those friendships, they are disappearing along the way.

I believe all of the broken relationships are broken because someone forgot/lost focus on its greatness. These broken relationships are repaired, if YOU want them to be. To me, a relationship is 50/50. Everyone has to put in an equal amount of effort. Yes, this means paying for dinner once in a while...  but if you have to put in 75 to get their attention, do it. 

Oct. 22nd, 2011

I'm spoiled

It's the oddest thing, waking up without you. I am fully aware I've slept alone before but after the 16 days of seeing you, sleeping within your arms, smelling you, caressing you, having you ask me if I'm ok everytime I twitch in my sleep... it's simply not the same. You've made me use to having you around. I depend on you being the very first person I see when I wake and the very last when I sleep. It's such a lovely feeling. Without that happening, I don't function the same. Something is missing. YOU are obviously missing.

It's good that you're not here because I haven't been taking care of myself lately. I've forgotten about house keeping, reading, relaxing accompanied by netflix among other petty things. I'm not saying I like that you're not here, I'm saying I need to remember I have routines too. If I want to be a "glass half full" kind of woman, your absence is also good because it prepares me for when you're gone next month...
Damn, I don't know if I'll be able to handle three weeks without you. What will I do?

You've spoiled me, my love.
I know it is physically possible to live without you, but I just refuse to agree with that; to let it happen. We found eachother; we've been blessed and I don't want to let go of what we've discovered. Don't ever forget me.

Oct. 1st, 2011


I was just watching the movie PS I Love you and I had to stop for a moment and type an entry on my journal. I've had four different types of beer sitting inside my fridge for about a month or so and today, I decided to drink one alone. Not sure if this is why I had the urge to type the way I'm feeling right now (they do refer to alcoholic beverages are 'liquid courage' -- maybe that's it). I wanted to share with my internet journal that I am happy living on my own and accomplishing the simplest tasks on my own. Do I believe in love? Yes. Do I believe in marriage? Yes. Do I believe there is someone out there for each and every person in this world? Yes. Is there someone out there for me? Maybe. Lately I'm beginning to think maybe not. Life is so complicated. Well, maybe not life. It's obvious to me that we should take responsibility for our own actions. We have to face the consequences for our decisions. So... I'm difficult. I'm complicated. I think of myself, and I think conundrum. I think of myself and I see a confused woman with a lot to learn and maybe, not the right mind-set on life's purpose or time management. I really do wish I had an older sister to talk to. I wish to be able to express myself with no judgement in return. Gosh, how I wish this world wasn't filled with lies, selfishness... evil. Wish society were a lot a lot alot more pleasant than what they seem.

Uff.. I think the beer's kicking in. I will definitely wrap this up later...
Until then, don't be afraid to ponder.
Sweet dreams!

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