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December 2016

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When I was growing up, I heard the term "Mamacita" used by men who adored their mothers. It was a term of endearment. It meant "little mother" -- very cute. As my teenage years came around, the way I viewed people who would say that changed. Men were using it as a come'on, a pick-up line. It simply became disgusting. I hated men who said it because it was expressed in such a perverted way... demeaning, disrespectful... "Oye mamacita, que buena estas!" (Hey baby, you're so fine!) It doesn't sound as bad in English as it does in Spanish, not as vulgar but it was. Every time I would hear it I was nauseated.

I grew to loathed those words. However, I can't deny the thought of wanting someone to say that to me behind closed doors. I wouldn't mind it as much if it was said by someone who thought I was fine and lusted over me as I did for him.

I never thought I'd ever hear him say it...

The night I heard him use it. I was a taken back. I didn't know if I should say something or not because it seemed like it was an inside joke between him and his little friend. I cant lie to you though, it bothered me in such a way that I didn't want to be in the same room anymore. I wondered what he meant by it. Did he like her? Was he flirting with her? but I stopped my rippling negative thoughts when I asked myself... Does he know what that even means?